Throwback Thursday

[camdemille]

Lauryn Hill 2005 Addis

Can't believe this interview is still on the internet. You can download by right-clicking and saves as .mp3.

Conformed to Love and Guarding the Gates.

Lol.. "I ask this question with all due respect...Ummm... Some have accused you of being a bit cryptic; difficult to understand." This always cracked me up, because she sounded so frustrated, but she really wanted to understand, you know?

[camdemille]

"Ladies, we have beautiful men in our community, but we have a history and a legacy of brokenness, damage, and abuse. And don't take that lightly."

[camdemille]

You know i just realized most everyday is Throwback Thursday around here, but I suddenly decided to go back and make sure there wasn't anything I may have missed. There wasn't, but I did rediscover these two gems going through the archived versions of older Ms. Hill fan boards.

[AinA]

🤔 hmmm... my post might be a tad off smh sorry 😂. Lemme say this and this is what I pick up on (and I’m so conflicted in writing this) but...Lauryn has a beautiful spirit/heart and mind. She’s a beautiful person, but she’s been so hurt and from all angles perhaps and who knows how many times, that she’s barricaded herself behind walls that are now very hard to push out the way probably. Survival mode/self-protection. What ends up happening is you develop a “distant” persona to protect yourself from being hurt, but in her situation it’s a little complex because she also seems to have carefully constructed a detached sense of care in relationship to power and when I say “detached sense of care” I simply mean towards people she doesn’t know (like the public etc) or with people she simply has a professional working relationship with. I can’t really flush it out at the moment. It’s just layered. I haven’t slept much in the past few days lol.

Anything outside of family/familiarity perhaps, is a question mark, heck even within family you have to be careful lol but family is family. Her celebrity doesn’t help the situation because she probably doesn’t know who she can trust (this can be very isolating for ppl with fame), so she’s probably turned that filter all the way down. She doesn’t know what people want from her, whether they truly care etc, Obv this isn’t something reserved for her. Include all the other factors, kids etc it’s a lot to handle probably. I think many people in her position are probably like this. She also probably doesn’t know whether ppl want “her” or simply the “idea of her.” People create these very simplistic polarizing emotional dichotomies/caricatures for those in the limelight, not realizing how destructive this is. They literally have to be on two ends of the spectrum, as though they aren’t normal ass people with a range of emotional functioning which otherwise can’t be expressed without someone trying to exploit it. It’s like they can’t fully be themselves without someone trying to capitalize off it, like u have to be a robot or something. It’s sick and I don’t understand people’s adherence to it; it’s unhealthy. I think it’s why people many people think celebs are bi-polar. This sort of toxicity breeds “bi-polar” like effects for some of these people but they aren’t truly bi-polar. It’s simply being forced to restrict themselves to only showing certain traits and when you break out of what’s “acceptable”, you’re labelled something you’re not because people don’t seem to understand.

All in all, Lauryn is highly misunderstood, including by people who call themselves “fans” which is why I never liked using the word and because I have an appreciation and care/love for “the person” as opposed to how some view things.
Lauryn, if you read this, don’t be upset please. I felt led to write this for some reason. You KNOW I got love for you. I want you to know unconditional love/care exists. It exists, it’s rare but it exists lol. Perfection not needed lauryn. It’s not needed. You’re a whole person, like everyone else and you have every right to be that and people have to accept that, feel me? So if you have a stank ass attitude one day or however long lol for whatever reason, then that’s what it is 😂. People are conditioned to respond to love in various ways but unconditional doesn’t seem to be a factor for many and I think it’s because it’s too vulnerable. I have “levels” to it, it’s interesting but I think it’s very similar to what I described above 😂.

Anyway I need to go to bed. Don’t hate me Lauryn!!!! lol. You are incredibly rare and I wish more people took the time to truly understand and to truly care.

And yes Cam I remember that interview I thought it was very good, very authentic.
I think I’m gonna regret this post lol